It hurts, doesn't it? And you're getting tired. All of the struggling you do to maintain a semblance of "normality" in your life despite the fact that you know not everyone has to fight this like you do. You want to lose control. The tension you feel is the result of your desire to do something that you've been told doesn't make sense. You want to give your power up. You want to hand it over to me. But you hesitate. So you suffer. You're starting to lose your mind. You want relief. You tried to wait it out, thinking the pain would relent. You tried to be "rational" and survive this urge without inflicting damage on yourself. But you're already in pain. Relief doesn't come with time or release, but in accepting that you're mine. This is a rapid induction. And the price will increase after 12/31/18.