I always find it so funny when my submissives think that they can live without me. They think they can move on, leave femdom behind, forget about me, etc. But guess what? It never ever ever works. Even the submissives that may succeed for a week, maybe two; end up crawling back with open wallets and scraped knees from begging so hard to be allowed back into my life. So what's the point? You know you can't live without this part of your life anymore, you know it'll make you miserable. So instead commit fully, dive in head first and connect with this part of yourself that you enjoy so fully.