After confiding in me about your lifelong struggles with humiliation, addiction, and feeling manipulated and trapped by the women you adore, I'm starting to notice a pattern. You want so desperately to break out of this cycle of being used and controlled and thrown away for the next woman, but it's all you've known your entire life. You fetishized your own torment at a young age, and by now you just can't seem to stay away from the very thing that breaks you down again. You're helpless. Addicted. Desperate. Of course I want to help you, but it's clear to me that there's really only one way out: embracing your role and staying in it. Don't think of it in such a negative way, instead focus on how much better those women's lives are after having used you for their gain. It's much too late to rewire this deep and intricate programming each woman has installed in your mind. Learn to let go and accept it. Stop trying to break free, because this is your freedom. So take my professional advice, be happy, and see me again same time next week :)