PinkMoonLust unexpectedly breaks down when she learns one of her deepest lovers has passed away. (Good God, I called an exboyfriend, someone else answered his phone, & when I went to the internet to figure out why someone else answered his phone, I found he passed away in 2019. Intense.) Watching this now even disturbs me? A part of me wants to say that I had no idea I would feel anything like this, and another part of me imagines how tightly I slept with my arms wrapped around his neck and chest protectively -- how I clung to him I remember how hard it was to leave him in any context and how our separation wrecked me over and over, and I think to myself --- "God damn right you're crying your damn eyes out" -- I was going to continue. I called him because I was willing to see him, and I damn well know it. Talk about eating eastern philosophy for breakfast, oh my God. There is a part Two to this video, hahaha, I probably cried 5 hours but only video'd 26 minutes, hah.