You so desperately wish you were worthy of sex, but you're not. You don't deserve it. You and I both know, it's never doing to happen. You're meant to be a sexless loser for the rest of your life. You couldn't handle the touch of a real woman. You have no skill to pleasure them back. Face it, you're doomed for a life of sexless denial and rejection. It's just you and your hand for all of eternity... Isn't that right, beta?