Denial is not a punishment, you have to change how you feel about denial. You want to be a good boy, you want to prove you are worthy of my attention and a good boy is more than happy to sacrifice his orgasm for Me. Your pleasure comes from pleasing Me and I'll deny you most of the time. Denial is a reward for you, by simply denying you a selfish thing like your orgasm I will make my presence in your mind more and more real, more vivid and you want Me always present with you.