you need to own up to your natural impulses and accept that you're an inferior beta bitch. Not just when you're jerking off, but 24/7. Real men have the vulnerability to admit the truths of their desires. Pretending to be vanilla or dominant is so far from what you are. you're lying to yourself and everyone around you, and that's what makes you pathetic. you want to worship women. you want to serve. you want to provide. you want to be bullied, denied, and be used in the name of female supremacy. you would be a more respectable man if you recognized that living life like you're not a submissive loser is a waste of time because everyone can see right through you. you need to be trained into being a good subservient worshipper. you are going to be taught how to obey. you can easily be a real man and a beta bitch at the same time. When you accept your reality, your life will change for the better.