You crave ownership don't you. You want stability after fumbling around in femdom for so long, you're tired of just dipping your toes in and dabbling with femdom. You're realizing that you might have been mistaken thinking you were fully committed before, that everything you're doing has just been a pale imitation of what femdom could truly be like if you just stepped up. You've gone through the motions of it but that's it. There's been no loyalty, no dedication, no training. You've realized what you're missing out on though and now you want a goddess who will completely own you, control you, train you to be the perfect little sub and I can do that.