Here you are again with your little existential doubt: am I doing something with my life or am I continuing to lose neurons by jerking off compulsively???? The damage has already been done. Recovering the neurons lost by so much jerking off is not possible. The only thing you can do is continue jerking off nonstop and lose the few neurons you have left until you're stupid, mesmerized with my voice, with my body, with my existence. Lose control. With your whole body static in a permanent erection and with that hand pumping that cock nonstop. Up, down, up, down... until you lose consciousness, up, down, up, down... until you melt your brain and act like a GOON MACHINE.