Try as you might, you simply cannot reach ascension. It's just not in the cards for you. The time of struggling against nature and fate is over. Accept the inevitability of your destiny. Sex. Intimacy. Love. Companionship. Being desired and wanted...none of this belongs to you. None of these are meant for you. It is time to begin anew, to aspire to....greater things. Purer things. Permanently.