You are in my office today seeking a cure to "loser". You list all the things that you believe are wrong with you and I add several more. It becomes very obvious that your jerking addiction is making you a loser. It needs to stop! Fortunately for you, I have the cure. You're going to eat your own cum! I know that sounds disgusting and vile, but that's the whole point. If you eat your cum every time you jerk off, eventually you won't want to jerk off anymore. This is mental conditioning you desperately need.