The biggest problem that you have is that you care too much about what people think about you. What they think about what you do and how it can skew a perception on you. You think too much what your friends think, and you just want to adhere to what society adheres. Porn and porn addiction is frowned upon by society, leading you to feel shame whenever you binge on clips and goon yourself senseless. That shame then makes you run away from your true nature. But I am here to help you accept that you're a jerk junkie. You will accept and embrace this little condition of yours to please me AND yourself, won't you? Let me persuade you into nurturing that quirk of yours and encourage you to delve even deeper into jerkaholism. It'll make you feel sooooo good to obey Goddess and accept your fate.