I’ve recently met with my doctor, he told me that all of my masturbating was messing up my metabolism. I’m not sure how that actually could be true but he told me I should refrain from doing so. Tt’s been almost 2 weeks since I’ve touched myself, I’m going crazy. I go back to see him tomorrow! I can’t even concentrate when I’m in class anymore, I just keep thinking about all the guys on the swim team.. I tell you all about my fantasies with them. I decided to clean up the house to distract me from my thoughts. Eventually I run out of stuff to clean & I find myself sitting down again with my thoughts. My hands start to drift around my body, no I can’t do this. I think well if I don’t touch myself then maybe it’s not considered masturbation so I decided to hump the table for a little bit. Besides I do see him tomorrow, it's been almost 2 weeks. Just to have a little bit of relief feels wonderful. I almost can’t stop myself though I start to play with my chest.. while thinking about the boys on the swim team. I’ve messed up I should never have done this, I cannot control myself any longer. I leave & come back with a dildo I mean it’s perfectly natural to have something hard, big & deep inside in between your legs. It’s good it’s natural. I play with myself until I orgasm standing up I fuck my self from every side so you can see every angle of me plunging my dildo deep inside me. I cum so hard I got the floor wet & I even show you how it’s dripping down my leg & off of my hand. Hopefully the doctor wont find out & if he dose hopefully he wont be to mad.