Fucking my Best Friend of 9 years

My best friend and I have known each other for 9 years. Recently he had gotten out of an abusive 2 year relationship. During that time we almost fell out as friends because she was very controlling and jealous of me. But he's always been like family to me. We know everything about each other, and since the breakup we've been talking everyday for a month. I've always had a secret crush on him, but never had the courage to tell him because i didn't want to ruin the friendship we've had. Last week we were out having dinner and went back to his place like we used to talk about whatever was going on lately, when he got quiet for a minute and said, "do you want to kiss?" I was beside myself, "are you sure? you just got out of a relationship, i don't know if thats a good idea right now." I was afraid I was just a rebound. "Don't worry" he said, "i've already slept with like three girls, and I've been wanting to get out of that relationship for months. I don't miss her or care about her at all. I'm not asking for a pity kiss." I was quiet, this was the first time since I knew him that you could feel the tension in the room. "The truth is, I've been into you for a really long time, and i think my ex knew it, which is part of why she didn't want me hanging out with you anymore, other than her being a lunatic." I looked up at him and said, "I've been into you too." He leaned in to kiss me. After we made out, I asked him if i could grab his dick...