I could never hate you as much as you loathe yourself, and that is the best bit. You get so aroused by mean girls, and then you feel tormented with shame afterwards. I want the guilt to consume you, and haunt you. There is no aftercare, no self-help, nothing that will make you into a better person. You will always be just another loser; there is no escape from that. Girls that bully you are your sex life.