Holding my piss on the toilet

This video has been requested a lot. I go into the bathroom needing to pee desperately. When I sit on the toilet it's normal for me to automatically start to pee. Sitting on the toilet with a full bladder is hard when you can't pee. I sit with my legs crossed trying to hold it in. I successfully hold in my piss for the first 8 mins or so but it gets gradually harder as time progresses. I have to hold my hand over my pussy to stop the feeling for having to pee, but it doesn't work. I begin to leak into the toilet. Little drops of pee splash into the water. I try to hold back but i pee on my hand. I then decide I can't hold it and release a strong stream into the water. My pee stream makes lots of noise. I breathe a sigh of relief as I empty my full bladder into the toilet bowl. My messy stream gets piss all over the toilet seat and my hand. I wipe them as well as my wet pussy. My bladder feels so much better now that it's empty