Do you know how hard it was just to film those two videos? Do you know the damage I just did to my bathroom? I broke my favorite ashtray. I haven't even lit my smoke yet. I'm trying to smoke to stay calm but, eveyrtime I flick my smoke into my broken ashtray I'm just reminded of how I lost so much for so little. Where am I gonna find another ashtray like this? Smoking isn't gonna to make me feel better either. But I know what will. Follow me into the living room shoe bitch.