You know what you are, don't you? Regular porn feels wrong; as if you weren't supposed to watch it. There's a reason for that: you've been rejected by every single person you were ever attracted to. Even when they didn't immediately dismiss you and tried to let you down easy, you knew they were just being polite. You're finally at that stage where you've accepted your fate: no one's ever going to be sexually interested in you, so you learned to adapt... And sexualize the inevitable: pretty Women denying and humiliating you into sending them all your money.