Dont carry on living the lie, just go for it. You cannot live your whole life not having experienced the one thing you want so so bad... cock. Staring up at a rock hard dick, all for you to enjoy, lick, suck, fuck. No woman can suck a dick like a man either, a man knows how to take care of your dick, knows exactly what's pleasurable. And how could you never have your ass slowly stretched open, feeling a throbbing cock slowly make its way inside you, hearing him moan for you. She doesnt need to know how much you love dick.. though it would be fun if she found out.