I'm not saying that you are gay, I'm just saying that lately you've been noticing alpha males. you know you don't deserve pussy, and honestly you hardly think about it or crave it anymore. you started off watching pixel porn, like all good betas should, to cover the women that you aren't good enough to stroke for. But you know what wasn't censored? Cocks. Big alpha cocks. So you found yourself stroking while looking at them. And now you can't stop. you used to be jealous of them, and now you are jealous of them women that get to please them. I'm not saying you're gay, just a horny homo.