Wonderful that you could lend me your teen diary to add insight into your past experiences! I've read through it and have identified three events that I find VERY interesting. Firstly, the swimmer whose cock you saw when he was getting changed. The feelings of envy and inadequacy, allied to arousal and lust. You knew you were no equal to him didn't you? With your mediocre body and disappointing appendage. I can see that you got quite obsessed with him. And that's just the beginning! Clearly, you are a sissy cum slut through and through! Fortunately, I think I have just the solution. Brad, would you come in here for a moment?