*sigh* why are you being a weak scared little bitch ahha. I guess that's something to expect from a gay. Only you're not truly living the gay life. you haven't made any steps to show just how much you're about that life. No dick sucking. No getting your holes fucked. No GRINDR dates... just a closeted bland boring life of fake heterosexuality. Well if it's a push you're looking for, a push is what you'll get. Right into a life as a gay.