There's no point in trying to stop. You're too addicted to porn. And it's not a bad thing; it just makes you a loser. But I think you've already reconciled that fact. You are a pathetic, weak waste of space. And you are going to jerk. You're self-loathing away, and nothing's ever going to make it go away with more porn, and the more porn you watch, the deeper you get into your self-loathing, and it's just a fucking cycle. However, considering that you will never, ever be a sexual option to women, it helps you understand that this is your purpose. Your purpose is to serve the porn gods. Give your cum and your money to the porn goddesses. Stroking is the only mode of your existence. There is no way up from here. Only further into your addiction.