"I isolate when I'm doing my worst..." I resonate so HEAVY with that part. And nothing u said in this video regarding the type of connection u desire was insecure or jealous--U're simply understanding ur standards and that's healthy, especially if u know ur worth! Then whoever doesn't measure up then too bad, U don't ever have to lower, mute, or limit who u are because it's out of someone's reach. Because there's likely someone else with longer arms & efforts that meet u where u want to be met
I don’t really know much about you but my heart aches for you and the feelings that you expressed in this video and I just want to tell you that you are lovable and you have so much to offer.