Regular porn does nothing for you anymore. Your dick can't even get hard to watching men fuck women or women sucking dicks. Even Bukkake does nothing for your depraved mind. What you desire is to be on the brink of self-destruction by sending all of your money to hot black women online. You can't stop this. You don't want to stop this. You have a need to be used for everything that you have. It's so arousing for someone to call you their pay pig. You get off like nothing else when black women talk down to you and demoralize you while happily accepting your money. If you indulge in anything related to humiliation, it leads you right back to findom hell. You can't even watch actual porn without searching for keywords like findom, pig, goddess, or loser. Deep down inside, you love feeling powerless. You love being on your knees, giving everything you've worked for to a woman who is better than you, hotter than you, a woman who will never fuck you. In fact, I think you have a denial fetish more than you have anything else. The denial of a woman who receives payment from other men solely because she is attractive arouses you. You masturbate while oinking into the phone, never communicating actual speech. And even if you do watch regular porn, it is only to entertain your fantasies regarding the attractive woman comparing you to the man she is actually with. She'll never have sex with a pay-pig loser like you. And then it goes over and over again: the feelings of wanting to be humiliated, pain, shame, and jerking off. Trying to stop and then going right back to paying. You love throwing away money for the sake of the dopamine that findom gives you. You do not care what it does to your mental health or self-image because you thrive on your own. Self-destruction,