You really have accepted your place in life as a beta loser haven't you? You're always swallowing it but it's not quite the same any more, is it? You know you can do it once, twice and even three times. You crave more humiliation and degradation. Ruining and swallowing a couple of times simply isn't enough any more is it? It's a good job for you I'm here to tell you exactly what to do.