Is your pleasure a want or a need? The discipline that you learn through submission is such a good way to understand the difference. You have desires, cravings, biological urges - but are you able to surpass these when instructed to? Can you bring yourself to the brink of pleasure, then deny an orgasm if your Mistress doesn't grant it? This is a valuable lesson about submission that ultimately opens the door to the kind of intense pleasure you dream about.