2023 was one of the hardest years of my adult life. I decided to share this with you all as I have entered the MV Awards 2024 for Best Following of the Year. As I explain in the video, my reasoning for entering this category is that despite all that I went through last year, you all stuck right beside me. It not only melted my heart but made me appreciate my career and fanbase much much more. I talked briefly of retiring last year as my mental health was suffering. In this free video, I explain all of the reasoning for my mental suffering and I *do* tear up a couple of times. Please keep this in mind. TRIGGER WARNING: addiction, misdiagnosis, mental suffering. PS: Absolutely no plans to retire as my mind is now clear and able to process life appropriately. Things are MUCH better now. I finally got sick of suffering and made SERIOUS changes in my life and I am now yielding those results.