Well... It started when I was a little younger. I found... pornography. Magazines and videos and even stories, like books... I was curious, seeing these pretty women and these sexy men and I got caught up in it. I confessed for those sins father but it felt so good to look at. What did it feel... like? Well, it made me feel warm inside. And my heartbeat would rush and jump, and I'd feel faint and my legs would go numb... I'd always feel guilty but I would go for a bath and rub a washcloth between my legs.. I know, father, I'm sorry... but it made me feel good. It made my ... womanhood feel good. So what started to happen was, I would watch the porn, read the books or magazines and I craved to be naked. I'd go into my room, strip naked and rub my hands all over my body... Sliding over every part of me, enjoying the feeling of my warm hands over my skin. Over my nipples, and neck, my bum, legs... even ... even my pussy. I'm sorry father... Vagina. Thank you for forgiving me father but that isn't all. It... escalated.