Your male mind has been conditioned to want and crave sex your whole life. It's hard to admit you want the opposite. A beta male like you should be conditioned into chastity. It's complete control over your cock and orgasms that bring you the excitement and arousal you crave. You'll want to be locked, longer and longer. Providing you a release just takes you out of the place you long to be, and that's completely controlled. Forever chastized.