This isn't my first time but it's my first time telling someone, and I chose you. I text you last night and other times before when I was out at a bar and met someone, but now I'm going to confess what I have been doing. I tell you the story of meeting him and  that last night I didn't mean to but I swallowed him whole. It's definitely not the first time and probably won't be the last, it's obvious I feel awful but maybe not enough to stop. I try and validate showing you how great it looks and how he was a jerk and maybe the world is better off if I swallow all these guys and just keep growing. I deserve to grow bigger but when is it too much?