You sit there, knees trembling, heart racing, a wave of nausea washing over you as you prepare for the verbal onslaught about to come your way. It's as if you're about to face an interrogation, only this one is self-inflicted, and the interrogator is none other than yourself. The monologue that's about to unfold in your mind will be the most intense and debasing experience you've ever had. You begin by reminding yourself of how pathetic you are for spending hours on end, mindlessly watching video after video, stroking your dick, and getting off to the filthiest goon material you could find. You're that fucking loser in school that everyone laughed at, and you've somehow managed to turn that into your sexual escapade.