Your shortcomings revolve around one simple reason - you are not and never will be good enough. Your step-parents won't take pride in you, and your friends aren't true; they are using you just like everyone else. You've failed as a man, a step-son, and a lover, and finding someone to accept you and your twisted desires & fantasies seems unlikely to happen. Consider yourself lucky to have Me, a perfect woman that will humiliate you and turn you into a complete fool. You'll learn to derive pleasure from your failures and embrace your shortcomings instead of futilely trying to change them. Embrace your true self - a loser who has to pay Me just to hear how much of a disappointment you are.