I start on the toilet in a blue dress, I'm holding the camera up with hands trembling every so often as waves of shivers course through my body. I am holding in a VERY desperate wet farty blast of messy loads. I can tell. So how did we get here? I go on to tell the story of everything I ate and drank that has contributed to this intense moment of desperate messy load in the toilet as I struggle more and more to keep my butthole clenched. I love to hold it. The waves of pleasure the holding and the final release give me are so intense. Even as i sit on the toilet, I still sip some of my double espresso iced latte. That's not helping! Finally I let of the very loud gassy explosion of load into the bowl. I was so clenched that AFTER the messy load, I finally relax a little and pee LOL. And the flush!