You shouldn't be ashamed that you are a findom addict. Just like smoking or any other guilty pleasures in this life, spoiling a woman is a fucking lifestyle. But you know why? It's because your provider nature comes to surface. Men always love giving to women, that's why it has become a fetish. You are not used to see women working, you like working for providing them an easy and princessy life. So embrace this life. Love it. And live it fully. Because you're made to be a paypig.