I was highly amused while editing this because I was SO TRIGGERED just talking about it that I could not properly communicate and articulate myself, LOL. All I can do is laugh about it now. Ever since I got online at 19 and found out I was not alone in my interests... I've been scrutinized, been suspicious of, questioned about whether I'm "real" or if I actually have the fetishes I have & not believed. Why does this still happen?? Seriously though, I think there's enough of me online to show you who I am at this point. Thank you to JAYBDL (switchbacks on FL) for talking through this with me & helping me see another point of view.