You fucked yourself. You decided to marry a woman that at the time loved you, but now, she’s absolutely repulsed by you. All the love is nonexistent now. She doesn’t even want to fuck you anymore. She knows that you spend money on humiliation porn and obsess over women that don’t even know you exist. She knows that your porn habits have gotten way out of hand. I don’t blame her. I wouldn’t want to fuck a humiliation freak either. You chose this lifestyle over her, and now she doesn’t even want to be with you anymore. There’s no fixing your marriage. Plus, you’re better off here. You’d rather fuck your hand to hot woman that degrade you. You can’t get that from her, and she’s probably out fucking better men than you anyway. You deserve it.