You have no other choice. Why should you get to feel the intense sensation of an orgasm? Do you believe that you deserve to feel that? Of course you don’t. You know your place. You cut that pleasure out of the equation. Sure, it will feel good while you build it up. Stroking until you’re on the brink of orgasm. Anticipating the moment that you get to release all of the built up cum. All just to ruin it. No orgasm. No pleasure. Instead of euphoria, you feel incomplete and unfulfilled. Yet it’s thrilling for you just knowing that you’re going to ruin one of the greatest sensations that can happen in your body. You’ll keep ruining them because you know you are undeserving of a true, full orgasm. You ruin it. Always.