You want a JOI, but you're not ready for the pleasure that comes after pain. That's a reward only suitable for a true slave. We need to see your dedication, and true dedication comes in the form of unquestioning servitude. Against every instinct, you'll slap the head of your cock as hard as you can, you'll punch yourself in the balls when Kim tells you to, and you'll be endlessly grateful to accept denial as your reward.