Okay so this is REAL and it seriously sucks. I'll go ahead and explain what happened so people can stop asking. This one is locked outside of being subbed because I'd honestly rather people NOT see it. Pretty much, I found this guy on tinder and had him come over to do an MFM video like we usually do for fun... but he fucked me so good and i was so attracted to him that I caught feelings. I ended up ignoring my husband half way through the video and just finishing with this guy. I literally forgot he existed. I was getting fucked so hard that the headboard of the bed high the cord to a light and the light went off but we just kept going. I swore to my husband on everything we had that I would never contact him again, and we agreed that if I did, we would split up. 2 days later on a monday, I went to the gym in the morning while my husband was still asleep. I don't know why, but I called the guy in the parking lot and talked to him for a few minutes. I then deleted the call from my call logs... then I went home and acted like eveything was normal and that I hadn't done anything. I acted completely normal all week, and Friday I went to the gym in the morning again without my husband. I started texting this guy all kinds of fucked up things I shouldn't have. Before I left the gym, I had deleted the texts so he wouldn't find them. Later that night I was at home. I still hadn't told my husband anything that I had done. We were taking a shower together and making out. I was telling him how much I loved him and that everything was super great between us and that I wanted to grow old together etc. After our shower for some reason he looked at my phone and told me that if there's anything I needed to tell him. He told me if I was 100% honest with him, that he wouldn't divorce me. So I told him I had texted the guy (I left out the phone call untill later). He asked if the messages were bad since I had deleted them and couldn't recover them. I lied to his face hundreds of times in a row and swore on my family's life several times that nothing bad was said. I even messaged the tinder guy for screenshots of the messages but he covered for me and said he didn't have them becasue his son checks his phone etc. I knew he was covering for me trying to save my relationship. My husband then calls him, and explains that it would be a really good idea to send those messages so he wouldn't have any problems. The guy then sent the messages and I knew I was absolutely fucked. Stuff hit the fan, I left for a while, and that's why my platforms were down for a couple of days. We've both always fucked other people to make content. I let him have girls, and he has let me have guys. He's never caught feelings for anyone else in the last 3 years since we've been doing this, and before now, neither had I. I still have no clue how things are going to work out, but I'm begging him to fuck my friends alone without me on camera so maybe he will take me back.