You have been trying to stay on the right path and be a good boy for too hard and too long. We have witnessed so many times how flesh is the weak and how wrong it is to expect holiness of us mere human beings. Can you really trust your local parish? Do you really think they never ever fuck nor get on any kinky business? Hahahaha, you are completely deluding yourself! Come one, even the "virgin" Mary was said to have been no virgin. Just be true to yourself and fuck that Jesus on a stick and cum on that pathetic cross! Hallelujah, the best way to worship you God is by cumming all over it!